[Linnyg]

Sweetie, talking things out does help but please, seek help not only from a legal pro but perhaps a therapist if you are not already seeing one for the PTSD. They can help you sort out your feelings, deal with the guilt you obviously feel and give you a safe place to talk. Not comming out right away was not an act of cowarice, it was self preservation. No one knows what the ulitmate results of their actions will be so it is not necessarily true that if you had done X instead of Y the result would have been better. You have since done what you can and that is all you can be expected to do.

Please find a trusted professional so that this does not have to consume your life so much that you miss living yourself. I will be praying for you.

As a side note, since you have a camera watching your house can you tape the activites going on so that you have proof?