[Lauren_]

OMG. Just got my photos back from my photo shoot at the competition.

Clearly I'd overestimated the improvement in my body with the 20 pounds I'd lost. I'm thinking of selling the costume I wore for the pics. Wow, Just wow. wow.

I guess I've been lifting & sucking in front of the mirror without even realizing it. And what the heck did my back look like BEFORE I lost the weight?

I feel hideous. I kind of want to renew my committment to lose more weight and I kind of want to dive headfirst into a chocolate cake because it seems so hopeless.